/~curiouslyjadeJade is a confused 18-year old college student. She is nearly perpetually tired, cold and sarcastic, but she's not as depressed as she sounds. Her bad habits include gnawing on random items during class, procrastinating a great deal and spending too much money. Unfortunately, her only redeeming factors are her stunning good looks. Clearly.
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Wednesday, December 31st | 6:33 pm
2008 meme time.
1. What did you do in 2008 that you’d never done before?
I for real declared my major (I hope). I lived with another family for an extended period of time. I taught in a classroom, counseled my children about life, and consoled them through an earthquake. I managed a kitchen and broke down about it, but, you know, I'm not quite done.
2. Did you keep your new years’ resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
I have no idea what they were, as usual, so, pretty sure I didn't keep them. I think I'll just quit as resolutions, now. Why do I need to make them on Jan 1?
3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
No.
4. Did anyone close to you die?
No.
5. What countries did you visit?
Japan.
6. What would you like to have in 2009 that you lacked in 2008?
I want to be closer to my family.
7. What date from 2008 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
I don't remember dates very well, but a list of notable events:
Alternate Spring Break in Central CA
Lucia and my birthday party!
First day of class at BT
BT Celebration
Too many hot springs in Japan
Moving into Kairos
Kitchen Inspection/Moths
Lazing at Home
8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
I would say it's probably finishing out my internship, feeling as if I really did change lieves.
9. What was your biggest failure?
Dropping CS 107. Awkward centerpiece fiasco at BT Celebration. Kitchen Inspection/moths, though I'm not sure if that's my failure. Failing to go to Stats, ever.
10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
Nothing horrible. I had some HPV vaccine complications.
11. What was the best thing you bought?
Ughhh I don't want to think about my shopping excess.
12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
?
13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
Something I learned this year was that legitimately working with people is incredibly difficult. I can certainly understand selfishness and laziness, but that doesn't make them less terrible to deal with in terms of teamwork. The silver lining, though, is that I appreciate my wonderful, driven friends who are really good people.
14. Where did most of your money go?
School and a truly horrifying amount of shopping.
15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
M.I.A. & Of Montreal. Probably small and silly things that I don't remember.
16. What song will always remind you of 2008?
M.I.A. - Paper Planes
17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
i. happier or sadder? sadder. KMship, woot.
ii. thinner or fatter? fatter. Oh fatkidhood.
iii. richer or poorer? richer.
18. What do you wish you’d done more of?
Been honest.
19. What do you wish you’d done less of?
Eaten, dear God.
20. How will you be spending Christmas?
I made cinnamon rolls again and chilled at home. Played some video games with Lynn.
21. How will you be spending New Years?
I'm at home right now, but I'll go celebrate Victoria's birthday with her.
22. Did you fall in love in 2008?
No.
23. How many one-night stands?
Zero.
24. What was your favorite TV program?
Um, Pushing Daisies? Stylista, ha.
25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate this time last year?
I don't really want to write about it, actually.
26. What was the best book you read?
I honestly don't read anymore. It's tragic. That's one of the things I want to do more next year.
27. What was your greatest musical discovery?
The Weepies.
28. What did you want and get?
A slew of jobs. A major that mostly makes me happy.
29. What did you want and not get?
The answer to what the hell I'm going to do with my life.
30. What was your favorite film of this year?
The Dark Knight? I didn't see many movies, actually. I did enjoy Milk & Slumdog Millionaire, recently.
31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
I turned 20 (oh dear god). I think on the day of, nothing too exciting happened, but I had a joint birthday party with a friend where we made appetizers and fun was had by all.
32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
A Life Plan. But as I've said something similar the past 2 years, I think, you know, maybe it's time to accept that things don't just fall together into a perfect plan, and you just figure it out.
33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2008?
This year perhaps deserves merit because, for the first time, I was forced to look vaguely acceptable every day at the job. So, for a few memorable weeks, a shirt & skirt & flats, but otherwise, the usual frump.
34. What kept you sane?
Friends.
35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
I kinda got into Gavin Newsome again.
36. What political issue stirred you the most?
Presidential election, Prop 8.
37. Who did you miss?
I missed my friends painfully during the summer, but once summer was over, I missed my kids.
38. Who was the best new person you met?
My beloved Kairos staff, a few people form BT.
39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2008:
Plan the shit out of things. Understand people.
40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:
I always have trouble with this one.
mood:  thoughtful
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Wednesday, September 3rd | 8:37 pm
Basically, it comes down to this. I'm too old to be a child at this point, but I'm really not ready for adulthood. Also, I haven't actually updated in a long time, but not for lack of trying, or, starting lots of posts and then deleting them.
My most recent year at school was something that I occasionally use words like "despair," "demoralizing," "dread" to describe (particularly when I'm feeling alliterative). That is to say, I had a horrible time with academics because I realized I wasn't passionate or even engaged in my classes, and also, they stopped being easy freshman classes, so they kicked my butt. Repeatedly. The year was also wonderful because I feel like my college group of friends really solidified, and I became closer to them, probably due largely in part because I needed them during my repeated existential crises.
This summer, I interned as a teacher. At the time, it was one of the few replies and even fewer offers I got to my slightly schizophrenic resume, so I was pretty much down for anything that even vaguely resembled employment. As I thought about it more, I was hoping that I would be able to see my own education in a different light after being on "the other side" or whatever. This has yet to be confirmed or denied, as I haven't actually returned to being a student quite yet. Somewhat unexpectedly, teaching made me feel like I really could DO something every day. This has had the somewhat unfortunate effect of making my days at home stagnating filled with guilt.
I'm going back to school very soon, which I sort of dread because, well, of many reasons, but I also sort of can't wait because I'm wasting away at home.
Anyways, difficult year aside, I'm going to write all about my life in the near future in hopes that I can figure it out.
mood: thoughtful
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Sunday, August 3rd | 8:55 pm
(from superlative summer)
One activity that I’ve started to indulge in regularly as a part of my burgeoning retiree status is watching Jeopardy while eating dinner. It’s started to become a genuine highlight in my day, especially because we’re in tournament of champions right now. The categories so far that I have excelled at: Food Movies and Knowledge of Fonts. (Mr. Jacobsen is kind of a Jeopardy beast.) I’ve started to think about what my anecdotal tidbit would be if I were on the show and Alex were introducing me.
On Friday, some of my coworkers and I went to one of our host homes, and I cooked dinner for them (with several helpers). It was confusing to cook for 10 instead of 4 or 40, so the proportions were kind of (massively) off.
Friday afternoon was the Breakthrough “Olympics,” which are a series of semi-academic, semi-athletic events that each department plans. The science event was appropriately complicated and confusing but was fine. I derive joy out of having the kids play really WASPy games, so it was a quad-athalon of cricket, croquet, fives, and bocce ball. Notable events of the day included my getting pied with a delightful mixture of whipped and shaving cream and various tug-of-war injuries. Why do people insist on playing tug-of-war when it inevitably ends in pain and crying?
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Tuesday, December 11th | 1:50 pm
Wtf, there was some saved draft in here that I hardly remember writing. It was about TV and how much I like it, or something.
Finals week of a rough quarter. I've taken to sort of lounging around wearing only things that begin with "sweat-" and groaning randomly. Also, I have some sort of plague (cold), so there's often fun surprises in my throat, which makes the groaning more interesting. Or gross.
I keep getting distracted by LJ. Bad.
The worst part, though, is for some unknown reason, I have a song from that Disney movie with Lindsay Lohan and Tyra Banks stuck in my head. You know the one, where Tyra is actually some sort of Barbie-esque doll who comes to life to be a mother figure to Lindsay Lohan.
Here, I found it on youtube for you. Enjoy!
mood:  GNAAAHHHH.
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Monday, October 15th | 3:46 am
I'm programming and listening to Spice Girls.
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Tuesday, July 31st | 10:30 pm
So, in the middle of some absolutely thrilling data entry, I decided that I want to write a series of entries on each fandom in which I kindasorta participate. It could be commemorative. It might also be cleansing for me to confess my huge amounts of dorkiness to any RL people floating around here.
Today, of course, is Harry Potter, my near and dear first fandom. Also, it's still Harry Potter day in this tome zone.
( Mr. and Mrs. Dursley, of number four, Privet Drive... )
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Saturday, July 21st | 1:16 pm
I've just finished. It's so hard to grasp that canon is over.
( some thoughts. spoilers, of course )
mood:  in shock
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Thursday, July 19th | 11:07 pm
No spoilers, just rambling about HP.
The thing is, I don't really want tomorrow to come.
Of course, I have the predicted plot-related curiosities about Deathly Hallows, but the overwhelming emotions are fear and anxiety. It scares me that Harry Potter is ending. This is something that I've been doing for, I think, just over 7 years, which is, you know, a significant portion of my life.
But really. I was 11 or 12 when I started reading HP, one of those kids who sat around and vaguely waited for a Hogwarts letter while also being just old enough to know one wasn't coming. still, though, especially in the beginning, when one Potter book came out with each year, it really did feel like Harry and I were getting older together. I know this is almost painfully dorky, but really, HP is about big themes as well as happy wizards, and I really do think that I "came of age" or whatever with ideals from Harry & Co. in my head. I've dorked around town with friends doing various HP events for years. I don't know. It's sort of like I equate becoming a real adult with the end of this Harry Potter journey, and, well, here it is, while I sit here, still immature and needing guidance from this series that I take way too seriously.
I'm hopeful that fandom will continue on as usual after the end of canon, so I won't go getting too dramatic, but I'm just so glad it exists and that I've been able to observe and participate a little. Half of me wants to contemplate adolescence and Potter, and the other half wants to scream and jump with fandom.
See you guys on the other side, I guess.
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Wednesday, July 11th | 3:51 am
Posting some thoughts on the OotP movie before bed/fretting about HP ENDING OMG.
( spoilers, obvs. )
mood:  WIRED
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Thursday, May 24th | 2:33 am
Instead of writing the several papers I should have been writing, I've spent my time tonight watching Supernatural. Oh man, it's such a problem.
Fannish gushing aside (which will surely come later), I'm pleased because for 1x06 - Skin, an episode vaguely about Sam's leaving Stanford, the end credits music was All Right Now by Free, Stanford's de facto fight song. It just made me so happy.
It's hard to concentrate on classes when I feel like my mind subconsciously insists that it's summer already. I guess I'll get through it, though. Nothing exciting planned this summer, for which I'm actually glad because I sometimes just have an overwhelming desire to sleep under my parents' roof again. I'll probably try to find some menial job close to home and have a small summer so in the fall I can again fully appreciate the hugeness of being here.
ETA: Oh no, I'm actually OBSESSED with SPN. This is going to be a huge problem.
mood:  sleepy
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Friday, March 16th | 1:47 pm
I called the people who organize jury duty and was essentially forced to reschedule for when I am home. I feel so comically enraged.
WAYS TO (hopefully) GET OUT OF JURY DUTY
1.) Show up naked.
2.) Show up in long cotton skirt, Birkenstocks, Communist gear with ratty hair talking about "freedom" and "justice."
3.) Show up in LSJUMB rally.
4.) Show up with cell phone headset. "No. No, I want the sheets to have at least 500 count. Hold on, other line. What? You're fired. I need those TPS reports."
5.) Fake narcolepsy.
6.) Break into random interpretive dance, preferably about "justice."
7.) Try to organize other potential jurors to participate in a reenactment of musical theater.
8.) Speak in languages that aren't English.
9.) Imitate my philosophy professor in dress and general composure.
10.) Speak in valley girl.
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Thursday, March 15th | 10:31 pm
Just when I'd started to forget that things that are not o-chem actually exist...
I got summoned for jury duty, in my hometown, 300 miles away. What do I do?
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Friday, September 22nd | 1:26 pm
Hello! I am here, at college, and things are very nice but also very confusing. I get lost ALL THE TIME, and I think I'm already getting a cold. It's kind of chilly here, compared to home. I have no complaints, but I just don't feel as if I'm actually here. SO CONFUSED.
Classes haven't started yet, but I'm already procrastinating writing an application for a seminar that is due in, um, 3.5 hours. Oh yeah, this feeling is very familiar. Yup, awesomeness. My academic advisor says I'm taking too many classes, which is awesome, so I'm going to have like the bare minimum of units because one class I'm taking is reputably hard. My life, seriously. I really have to get on those applications, so, yeah.
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Saturday, September 16th | 12:58 pm
I'm still packing, which is proving to be very difficult.
My dad, though I do adore him, is complicating matters because he is severely limiting the number of boxes I can bring. I thought this was because they would not all fit in the trunk, but this morning, I adventured to my garage and tested it out, and there was at least a little room. I let him know.
Says my father, "Yeah. I just don't want you to bring too many boxes and look like you're from Beverly Hills, you know?"
So, yes. My father is afraid that we'll look snobby. This is why I cannot find a place to fit frivolous items like shampoo and socks. Have not yet found a solution to this issue.
mood: AAAAHHHHH
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Tuesday, September 12th | 12:30 pm
It definitely feels incredibly confusing to be nearly leaving. It's not that I'm not excited for college, because I am, immensely so, but it's scary for me to think that so many things will be new and unfamiliar. Also, I've forgotten how to learn in my approximately 9 months spent without any of that business.
To make myself feel calm and in control, things I still need to do:
- finish cleaning my room (How embarrassing would it be to leave my room messy?)
- finish summer reading (My first assignment, and I'm already lapsing into the non-completion. Oh yes.)
- pack (Err.)
- install PSP onto my laptop (This would be made easier if I remembered where I put the CD.)
- visit the library and middle school (Tiiiime to say goodbyyyyye.)
- don't panic.
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Tuesday, August 15th | 6:25 pm
Today was my last day working at the library. I admit, I'm glad to be done with the ridiculous politics surrounding a place so unassuming as a library and the unsanitary books and the screaming children. I did feel a tad reluctant, though, as despite all my bitching and such, it was not a bad place to work.
In the spirit of commemorating my time there, I will make lists, because coherent sentence formation has become fairly difficult in my months without structured education. Or something.
Things Librarians, etc. Like:
- actual quiet
- people who leave before closing
- organized books
Things Librarians, etc. Do Not Like:
- dirt
- people who don't know what they're looking for
- books taken off the shelves for no reason
Things Librarians, etc. Wish You Knew:
- If you don't know where the book should go, please leave it on a table instead of hiding it on a random shelf.
- It's really difficult to find "this book I read a few years ago about a guy and some sort of animal... I think a dog... it had a red cover." An author or a title is very helpful.
- No, you still shouldn't run or yell or play music in the library.
Things Librarians, etc. Don't Want You to Know:
- In the back, unseen by and unavailable to the public, are hundreds of books that still need to be entered into the system.
- As pro-literacy as anyone may be, when someone checks out 50 books, the idea of putting them all back causes a twinge of frustration.
- Yes, that guy in the corner comes by every day and looks at porn. Yeah, we wish he would do it at home, too.
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Monday, May 22nd | 10:27 pm
1.) I am now on my 8,000th study break from a statistics project of supreme boredom and doom.
2.) I may have overcompensated when, after giving blood, the technician told me to "eat heartily."
3.) Facebook is eating my soul.
4.) Senioritis is also eating my soul.
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Sunday, April 16th | 11:14 pm
78.2%
This is the score that I am earning on our school's stupid online economics supplement, Aplia. 314.5 points out of 402 total possible. Now, this is partially because that point pool includes "experiments" and their following assignments, which we never do. It is also partially because I am lazy and untalented and make only minimal effort at answering questions that I don't know off the top of my head.
I have recently discovered that these may not be the only reasons.
Exhibit A (and the only one):
Wtf. No bueno.
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Thursday, March 30th | 3:04 pm
Hello.
The lovely ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) bordergold is awesome!
Yesterday, there were 2 semi-good-looking guys at the library. Simultaneously. It was a new record. In fact, I felt like the laws of physics were being violated and that the library would implode at any given time. It was an eerie experience.
( final-ish college decisions )
I don't know why this post isn't formatting right.
mood:  okay
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